For you, Dad.
It was April of 2020, my father left left us way too soon. It was tragic and completely unexpected. We were’t able to visit him and in the end there was no closure at all. I woke up most mornings thinking it was all a horrible dream and my phone would one day ring, all I got was the silence and never got a chance to say good-bye. Luckily, I had saved some voicemails and I ‘d listen to them daily. My spiritual realms opened up quickly to let him in and I stayed quiet, always looking for a positive way to mourn and grieve the pain of losing him. We could’t gather, we couldn’t grieve together and the family he held together was slowly drifting a part. It has been over two years and I now seem to be starting my grieving process. It is a very, very strange phenomenon. I recently went to a wake, my best friend of over thirty-four years lost her mother. I don’t know if being there, in the same room I have went to so many wakes in the past brought it on or if it was what someone had said. Or, perhaps being an empath I am feeling her pain. She said “You didn’t have this. There was no closure when you girls lost your dad. It was a horrible time”. She took me by surprise as I had never really truly thought about this. She was right, there was absolutely no closure at all.
Sunrise, to sunset;
You lived life with no regret. A heart of gold, your willing to always help, your wittiness; keeping everyone close.
You captured the sun on all the rainy days, you had a way of seeing life; only through rays.
Your positivity, always wanting to shine, a glimmer of hope, was all you needed to stay afloat.
Everyone around you captured your spirit for life, your enormous heart; and all your sacrifice.
You left us all too soon, you had so much more to live; just know that you blessed us all with your willing to always give.
As each day passes the memory of you will be lived on forever; as we create new.
You were given your angel wings ready to take flight, as you were given very little chance to fight.
God only knows why you were taken so soon, I am sure you were needed to fill another room.
The place you hold in our hearts, your love and your grace, will keep us going when a new day needs to be faced. Keep watching over us, Dad; as you are now our guardian angel, I hope you see things from every given angle.
For all who lost loved ones during a time where we had no choice but just move on I hope you find peace within you.
Love and Light, Always!
I wonder how many other people in this world have never grieved the loss of their loved ones? Probably pretty common and then, as we know, that causes disease. My mom took her life and we were all so relieved of the burden of her illness being gone that my sister and I didn’t grieve. I could still be in touch to her through her mother, my grandmother. But, when my grandmother died, that’s when all the tears and grieving began and I wasn’t even that close to my grandmother but, my connection on the earth plane was gone. The opposite happened with my dad. When he remarried he became a part of a new family and my sister and I and my girls were left behind. I lost him then. When he died I was sad but it was not overwhelming. I want to thank you Diana because I just realized something. I have been experiencing pain in my liver and I am trying to release whatever is there. Liver holds anger if I’m not mistaken but, for the life of me I can’t figure out what I’m angry about because I always just immediately by pass it. But, now I’m wondering if that could be something that is stored in my liver. Anger at my dad for leaving me for another family. Something to consider. Thank you. Linda
Oh Linda. First, I want to apologize for getting back to you so late. I am not getting any notifications. I will be sure to visit everyday to check this section. Secondly, thank you for being so vulnerable. You brought tears to me eyes. I am sending you so much love and strength to heal. Grief hits us and it’s not easy.
Love and light, always!
Diana