O-M-G! Anyone else feeling these intensified energies? It has been amplified, the universe that is. You probably don’t need to be into astrology, numerology or anything else for that matter to feel the change. I have been into all these things since I am a child and I still am today. I am one of those people that reads their cards before leaving the house and you will rarely see me without my crystals dangling around my neck and wrapping around my wrist. It has been a rocky, very rocky couple of weeks! When this happens we need to realize that we are changing. Our energy is amplifying with all the energy around us and it’s creating a storm…

The storm inside us is beautiful and I am about to share some very personal experiences that have come up for me these past few weeks. First I would like to point out the beautiful storm that I just referred to. During the storm it is rarely ever beautiful, especially when I am using the word to describe what is going on inside of us. It is the response to the storm and what we come out of it seeing that is beautiful. And, quite frankly we rarely see the light before the dark. It is true in nature and it is true in our lives. I feel as if I have truly hit rock bottom these last few weeks. Feelings have come up and an emotional imbalance that I cannot even reckon with. I was the mom trying to wipe her tears sitting way up high on those bleachers and using my contacts as an excuse to why the tears just would not stop flowing. At one point, my youngest son came to me and just gave me that look and he asked “Mom, what’s wrong”? I, of course said my eyes are bothering me. He then showed me a funny TikTok and made me laugh so hard that I swear I almost peed myself. As soon as we got home I got everyone settled, I ran myself a hot bath and the tears went into total hysteria. I was sobbing.

Life is not easy. The part of life that I like to refer to as, “Trauma” is a part of life that one day hits the surface. I truly believe that most of us who are struggling right now are clearing trauma. Most of it is the kind that we have been burying since childhood. It carries through us and it rears it’s ugliness at some point in our lives. I have been referring to this time right now as a “Season of healing”. I feel as if we are all healing something. I am going to share something and I am going to share it proudly. One of the things I have started healing a few years back was self-love. I spent most of my life struggling with it, as many of us do. Especially women. I am not saying men do not struggle, we all do. For me, I know that the struggle is a real struggle for us because I have been there and I am still working on myself. There is so much that comes along with this phenomenon. Confidence, not the kind where you put on expensive materialistic items such as a Louie Vouton bag and think you have your shit together. I mean the kind that you are solely independently counting on yourself and no one else. Ok, wow. So. In all honestly I was not going here with this blog, but I am going to continue. As you may have figured out I am talking about myself. I was never good enough in my head. I clearly remember going out and buying that bag because I wanted to be like all the girls in the office. At the time(2017) I thought it would be a good idea to start working full time at an insurance firm selling personal lines insurance. I failed the test 10 times and passed it on the eleventh time. Hmm, eleven. Great number!  Mind you, I have always worked from home doing side hustles to try and contribute a little to our household. My husband and I have a big family and it was always best for me to be home. If you don’t know, we have five children and they are all within ten years. It did not work. Failure after failure, every single day. I was trying so hard to be someone else. Well, crap hit the fan and the forces of life took me out of that job and a year later I was diagnosed with thyroid cancer that had spread. Cancer showed up for me to show me a different way. The area of the thyroid is truth. Our truth. I was not speaking my truth. I was always afraid of failure. If you have read my other blogs I mention that I was always an academically struggling student. That in itself is hard. So basically I have been failing for a long time! In all honesty this can turn into a memoir and a book if I sat here and took all of my experiences in my life and put them down on paper. Heck, maybe I will! For now I will stop here for this post in hopes that it may resonate with you as you can surely flip this around for some guidance and understanding about yourself.

The point of the said mentioned experience is after all these years of trying to find the true confidence in myself to complete something is that I am finally speaking my truth. And, it took cancer that had shown up for me to help me understand what I came into this lifetime to do. It is all my past failures that brought me here. Now, It is letting go of the fear of failure that has finally set me free! My truth. I have failed to help me become who I am today. A writer, a mom to five beautiful children, a Reiki Practitioner and a Life Coach because trust me, I feel you! I have become the queen at manifesting, it has all come together.  Trust me that did not happen quickly. It took me my whole life up until this point to realize that we are truly the creators of our universe. My most recent mentor did a wonderful job helping me along the way (Thank you Maria!). I spent years finding  myself and it was the self-love and confidence that helped me rise up and start speaking my truth of who I truly am. Whatever is coming up for you during this time us use it to rise up. When we face a storm within us that brings us to our knees that is when we change, as long as we let everything come and go. We cannot sweep our emotions under the rug to stay strong. Let yourself break down. Fix what needs to be fixed and use your voice. Let that voice of yours be known. It will create such an amazing realty that you won’t even believe what possibilities are on the horizon for you. It will allow you to see differently.  It will allow you to come out of the dark and light will appear.

Love and Light, Always!

Diana Rose Borisuck.

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