Last night was bizarre, to say the least. My dream state has always been a tad bit crazy, but this one tops off any dream I have ever had in my life. The message I received will carry me on for the rest of my life…

I contemplated for several moments, standing there listening to the waves crash against the shore. The ocean is always an invitation to let go of your fears. It always was, even as a child. I just let the waves take me to a different place-mind, body and soul. I stood there just thinking. I remember feeling a rush of vibrational energy and a voice in my head telling me to, “Go for it”. It was a voice I never heard before. It was no one I know or had known in my life. It was a voice I did not recognize. It was my voice. The voice that is always there but I often ignore it. I ran as fast as I could, dove in and let the ocean take me away…

My dream lasted a very long time. I could not come out of it. I was trapped. It was almost as if I was holding myself captive until I received the message I dove in for. I was able to breathe under water, it was strange. I swam a lot and I came across all different types of creatures with different messages and meanings. It felt so real.

I came across a sea turtle. He and I spent the most time together. This was highlighted as my biggest take-away from this dream. It is almost as if my dream was seriously trying to tell me something. He guided me through what seemed like endless gateways into the future. I remember being told, “You are guided, protected and YOU DO NOT HAVE TO RUSH. KEEP MOVING FORWARD”.

Sea turtles are very powerful. They are very spiritual creatures. They live very long lives. They travel the ocean and carry their homes on their backs. They are represented as being a creature of wisdom, protection, endurance and are deeply connected to earth and the energy of the ocean. A go with the flow kind of energy.

Sea turtles move calmly but they travel thousands of miles. They represent slow, steady progress and resilience. Hence, “You do not have to rush, keep moving forward”. I got the message. Loud and clear.

My biggest takeaway from this very powerful dream is that I need to protect my peace. That may even mean creating boundaries in my life, more than I already have. I was reminded that I already have everything that I need within me and my home; my husband and our five beautiful children. I am in need of deep emotional healing and I need to go with the flow of life by trusting my intuition.

I just had a full hysterectomy on December 18th. I am 12 weeks post op. I am being called to dive deeper into mother earth energy. I feel this on a very deep, powerful level. This means creation, stability, nurturing the energy where I am most comfortable and finding balance and harmony in my home. Again, everything within me. I must stop looking outward and stop thinking that I need to be more than who I am. I am whole as I am.

I was reminded that I am whole when I am at home creating, nurturing and protecting my peace and energy. While the world around me is in a constant state of running and being busy as a form of success, it sometimes leaves me feeling out of place and less than. Why? Because deep down I defy societal norms and therefore I really have nothing in common with most. Again, it can leave me feeling very alone. That is where boundaries come in. Healthy boundaries and building relationships that are real. My circle is extremely small. Once again, this is another aspect of feeling alone in the world.

I was reminded of many things last night, most of all…I was reminded that my ways of wanting to live life are beautiful. I am different from the world around me. My husband and I are raising our children very differently than most. I am going to embrace this. It is okay to slow down and just go with the flow of the endless miles of what the ocean represents, unlike the world around me.

Until next time…

Love & Light, Always.