Ok, OK! Did the title have you wondering? I bet it did because it had me wondering too. And, I have a feeling a lot of Mommas out there are going to love this one. Who were you pre-children? What did you love to do most? For me, organizing my space, especially my drawers was the one thing that had to be done. Why? Well, I think I just figured out why, as I literally just stopped to go to my computer to write about this. I spent a good hour cleaning out my drawers last weekend and it felt really, really, really good! Why? Well, for one I am finally letting go of the “other” version of myself that does not resonate with my soul anymore. Hence, the clothes that do not “fit” me anymore. We can maneuver this phenomenon in any which direction we choose. It is always how we perceive any given scenario. I have decided to let go of many things and it made me feel so good…
Here’s why. We change throughout the years. Whether it’s our body or mind; we change. We are human experiencing many, many human experiences and we must learn to adapt to the new person we become as we go through all the changes. Our soul just has to learn to catch up or vice versa. However we choose to master this phenomenon is our choice. The one thing I am going to tell you is this, no matter where you are in life you are amazing, beautiful and unique. Life is never a one size fits all. So, my question to you is…Why aren’t you changing to meet the requirements your life needs you to be? I spent many years unorganized. It is absolutely not who I am. At the time during the years that my children were very small, that is who I needed to be. I adapted pretty well to the chaotic and unorganized life that life had thrown at me for the time being. But now that my kids are older I am realizing more and more that I need to start out small and get certain things done for myself. I was super organized my whole life. The funny thing is that I haven’t considered myself an organized person in a long time. We lose ourselves. We don’t realize it, but we do. I am going to say this in the best way possible and it is coming from the deepest part of my heart, my children have sucked the flipping life out of me! I know how terrible that sounded and if one of you(my kids) are reading this right now, please know that I love you so much and I promise that every life sucking moment was the best moment of my life!
Aside from the fact that the clothes did not “fit” me anymore neither did the unorganized part of my life. So, I started with my drawers. I cleaned them out and said goodbye to so many items. Why? Well, because they were simply just not “me” anymore. Maybe they were too big, maybe they were too small. I do not know and I do not care! They are gone and I feel newly organized. I really do not know what has happened here, it was an unexplainable shift that had occurred within me. And, this is what life is all about. We change along with the changes in our lives. My children are getting older and it’s a really big change. Maybe my drawers will lead me to feeling like it is time for me to focus on all the things I kind of “let go” during these past years as my focus was solely on them. And yes, my focus will always be on them but there’s room in my life to focus on other things too. Maybe it’s an energetic pull from the universe knocking. Whatever it is it feels good. I kept a jean jacket, and two long cardigan sweaters from 1997. They are still in really good shape and they mean a whole lot to me. It signifies a lot when I wear these items. They still “fit”.
Love and Light, Always!
Diana Rose Borisuck.
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