The greatest truth and  force of light is held right within us, no one else. I have this little post-it hanging on my wall where I write and it states, “No Matter What, I am”. One of my recent mentors had mentioned it in class a while back and it has been there ever since. I see it every day. It’s a great reminder and a small little phrase that means a whole lot! It’s right under another post-it that has the name and telephone number of a publisher I had spoken to about a month ago. We connected on a very genuine level. I heard children in the back round during our phone call which of course sparked a conversation between two mommas that were just trying to catch some time to talk about things. Things led to her learning a lot about me and vice versa. It was probably one of the most genuine conversations I have had(with a complete stranger). It was actually pretty bizarre now that I am truly thinking of it. I hung up the phone with a lot of faith that my day will come when it’s meant to. It wasn’t a sales pitch neither. Things cannot be rushed. We have to be carefully woven and ready to come into who we are truly meant to be. Many people know. They know who they are, what they love and what their main purpose is in their life. For me, I am still trying to figure that out.

I remember back in school at some point in my life someone told me, “You cannot make a living being a writer.” It stuck with me. I think I was in college, my very early days of my freshman year of college. I loved to write. It was always my passion. Not at first, though. Actually when I was in elementary school I was a horrible reader! I was always taken out of class to go to resource room to get extra practice in reading comprehension. Go figure! In all honestly thinking back I think I took those words, “You cannot make a living being a writer” and the fact that I sucked at reading back in the day and it  stuck with me. Somehow I woven the two experiences and just put it out my head to pursue my passion. Maybe I wasn’t ready back then. Maybe I needed to try a bunch of different things to find out who I am along the way.

I had a teacher back in 7th grade who saw a lot in me. She suggested I start journaling. Sometimes I would even ask her to read my poems and such. It built my confidence in writing. By senior year in high school I was reading about three books a month. I have no idea where this came from! But you see, I had in in my head for so many years that I was not good at reading or writing. It carried with me for such a long time. At the time I didn’t realize that I can be whoever I want to be. I took the things that were said and held on to them rather than push forward with my dreams. Along the way I learned so much. I went from being a liberal arts and sciences major to taking every single psychology class they offered and enjoyed every single class I had taken. None of them were writing. Why? Because even after mastering reading comprehension by my senior year of high school and writing poems and stories that would set your soul on fire I took the words from someone else and it just stuck.

My universe needed me to woven myself throughout the years. I needed to learn a lot. I needed to face many challenges and most importantly, I needed to learn who I am on my own with all the life experiences I have encountered. And boy, oh boy there are many! I am so thankful for this little post-it. I have had it up here on my wall for about a year now. I look at it everyday and I smile, because…

“No Matter What, I Am!”

If you are stuck in a rut please remember these words of wisdom and know deep inside that you are who you are and you may not see it yet but it’s coming.

Love and Light, always!

Diana Rose Borisuck

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